Looking Forward

"I don't know what my future holds, but I know who holds my future." -Tim Tebow

The future can be a terrifying thing. Not knowing what will happen next, not knowing who you will be, not knowing where you'll go. It feels a lot like you have been thrown into a dark room where you can't see more than two feet in front of you. Nothing really seems to piece together.


But everything will fall into place, and everything will end up working out. I often have to remind myself, "Sometimes things have to fall apart so that they can later fall into place." God HAS a plan for the future, a plan especially for me, and a different one for you.

Many miles may separate us,

And people may come between.

But I know that the Lord has a plan-

Greater than anything heard or seen.

I don't know where I'm going,

You aren't sure what's ahead,

To the Lord I cast my trust

And to you I'll give my hand.

We will walk to Him together,

And when unsure of days to come-

We will cry out to our Father!

Our God will guide us home.

I pray my faith will grow;

I pray the same for you.

Whatever happens between us

I trust in God's great view.

Just a Boy

This is a song I wrote in the summer of 2011. I found it in some old stuff, and thought I'd share.

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I was falling down

Stumbling on my own way.

Thought I knew it all,

But then came the day:

I fell too far,

For something that wouldn't last.

But God picked me up

In His love that's deep and vast.

See you're just a boy

Who's never been mine.

But I've got my God

To keep me satisfied.

Now, each day gets better,

But each day still hurts.

Just know that I'm healing,

I can't get worse.

'Cuz you're just a boy

Who's never been mine.

But I've got my God,

To keep me satisfied.

I've moved on,

My heart's been made pure.

I don't need you now

And I won't cry anymore.

See, you're just a boy

Who's never been mine.

But I've got my God,

And I'll be just fine.

~~~

Have you ever listened to Ooh Ahh by Grits? If not, I recommend that you do. Right now. I'm a huge fan.

Anyways, In the song, there is a line,

The fear of never falling in love and the tears after losing the feeling of what you thought love was.

Last Summer, that was what I felt like. I cried pointless tears over a guy who dumped me because I thought that I had lost "love." I felt like I'd never be whole again, and a part of me would always be missing. The pain I felt in my heart burdened me and brought me down. One day, though, while just playing around on the piano, it hit me. I felt better than I had the day before. I was gonna be alright. There, in my moment of revelation, this song was born. After I had finished it, I felt lighter knowing that I didn't need that boy in order to be happy. I found the true love of God which was enough to keep me fully satisfied.

It has a tune and stuff, but I don't have the ability or talent to record and/or post. Sorry team!

Forgive and Forget

Sometimes people hurt us in the worst ways possible. Mostly for girls, this is through mean gossip, words written on the wall, a snide comment, a hurtful text, and so many other things. Often times we sit in our own self-pity, and just hold in anger to the person who hurt us like that.

Just imagine for a second, that your closest friend just decides to turn their back on you. This person hurts you in the WORST ways possible. They go as far as to betray you. Would you forgive them, ever? Probably not.

The thing is, there was this guy. His best friend sold him to people who wanted him dead. Once those people had killed him, the man who sold him felt awful. He had just wronged his close friend. But the funny thing was, he was already forgiven. The guy who was so unjustifiably betrayed, his name was Jesus. Before he died he forgave those who wronged him, and through his death and forgiveness, others were able to get into heaven. Even after hurting God over and over with out sins, we can get into heaven.

If we have such a Merciful Savior, who forgives even those who SELL Him away, why don't we forgive? How come we find it so hard to forgive those who have hurt us in some way?

Trust me, I understand it isn't easy. I KNOW it's not. I have harbored hurt before, and gripped anger. I have stared at a bathroom wall that screamed, "You aren't good enough," and "You are worthless." The worst part, it was directed right. At. Me. In the beginning, I was so full of anger to this vandal. And it's true, I shed too many tears over it. But through some of my very closest friends and mentors I was reminded of that one thing:

Forgiveness. Even if you don't believe in God or Jesus, forgiveness is sooo appealing. It's a chance to start over and erase all mistakes. Every time I mess up (which is often...) I hope that someone will forgive me for hurting them.

Through all of this trial, I have come to not only forgive whoever this is, but forget it. What happened is a thing of the past, and although it's still saved as a memory it is neither a good thing, nor a bad thing.

I wish I could forgive this person to their face, but I do not know who it is. But to anyone who has ever hurt me on purpose,

I forgive you.

With love,

Madeleine

You Have the Right to Tebow

Watch "Tim Tebow - "All He Does Is Win" (via ESPN First Take)" on YouTube

I am guessing at this point everyone knows who Timmy is. After all, every guy wants to be him, and every girl wants to date him. (I mean, I can see why!)

But why has he become such a big deal? Is it the downright incredible 4th quarter comebacks he has made in Bronco games? Is it his good looks? Is it his determination?

No, what really has people talking is the faith that Tebow has. While some people agree with it, others are very openly against him sharing his faith. For instance, his originally humble touchdown celebration became an overnight internet sensation when a the act of getting down on one knee to pray was coined as "Tebowing."

According to www.tebowing.com, to Tebow is to get down on one knee to pray, even if everyone around you is doing something else.

Is that bad? No! But people are getting so upset over this Tebowing and Tim Tebow phase. Let him praise God for the talent he has been given, and let the people Tebow.