Just a Boy

This is a song I wrote in the summer of 2011. I found it in some old stuff, and thought I'd share.

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I was falling down

Stumbling on my own way.

Thought I knew it all,

But then came the day:

I fell too far,

For something that wouldn't last.

But God picked me up

In His love that's deep and vast.

See you're just a boy

Who's never been mine.

But I've got my God

To keep me satisfied.

Now, each day gets better,

But each day still hurts.

Just know that I'm healing,

I can't get worse.

'Cuz you're just a boy

Who's never been mine.

But I've got my God,

To keep me satisfied.

I've moved on,

My heart's been made pure.

I don't need you now

And I won't cry anymore.

See, you're just a boy

Who's never been mine.

But I've got my God,

And I'll be just fine.

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Have you ever listened to Ooh Ahh by Grits? If not, I recommend that you do. Right now. I'm a huge fan.

Anyways, In the song, there is a line,

The fear of never falling in love and the tears after losing the feeling of what you thought love was.

Last Summer, that was what I felt like. I cried pointless tears over a guy who dumped me because I thought that I had lost "love." I felt like I'd never be whole again, and a part of me would always be missing. The pain I felt in my heart burdened me and brought me down. One day, though, while just playing around on the piano, it hit me. I felt better than I had the day before. I was gonna be alright. There, in my moment of revelation, this song was born. After I had finished it, I felt lighter knowing that I didn't need that boy in order to be happy. I found the true love of God which was enough to keep me fully satisfied.

It has a tune and stuff, but I don't have the ability or talent to record and/or post. Sorry team!